NewTortEnthusiast
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Hello all.
I don't really have anyone to dicuss this with back at home, or friends or anyone at school.
I struggle with controlling my anger. Well, I can control it pretty well, but there are definitely moments where I want to fight people for the stupidest of reasons and arguments. I usually bait people and pressure them to get physical first. I know its wrong but I'm really trying to better msyelf as a person.
The best way I could describe my anger is literally any Mike Tyson pre/post fight interview. I mostly channel my anger through hobbies, like :bodybuilding, weightlifing, my education, as well as caring for my tortoises. I'd say I have had the best improvement very recently, when I bought Steve and George. After buying them from my neighbor, they gave me a new way to calm down and center myself. They have also made me take better care of my two CDTs. I had previously given them a well suited habitat, but neglected them in terms of feeding, water, and overall diet. No longer. I am devoting my life to caring for my tortoises. They are the #1 thing in my life. Whatever job i get, i'll be happy with. I live a very modest life, grown up with very little, and I believe that is another reason I am so angry and filled with hatred all the time. Watching George and Steve walk around with their little legs, eating leaves, and looking forward to their growth picking back up and getting to where they should be, as well as seeing my CDTs noticeably "happier", all that has made this past week and half great.
I know 100% that returning to school, starting senior year of high school will ruin all of this. I will be back to my angry old self and I hate it. Last semester I really bombed all my AP classes. I once believed I could one day be the POTUS for crying out loud. Then my grades, stress level, anger level, poopoo SAT score, poopoo AP exam scores, and a bunch of other things really obliterated my dream. I plan on taking easy classes this year, take a gap year and go off to community college (if at all). Either I find some job or a few, do that and wait until I'm 21 so I could be a crime scene cleaner (dream job), or my parents said I can still live at home until I am 21 so I could get that job, my dream job, as my first job. (I am hispanic, and hispanic families, moms especially, want their kids to stay at home for as long as possible).
I know all of this sounds pathetic and really bad, coming from a once bright eyed top 10 student. I just want to live easy, doing a job I love, and taking care of my torts. I believe my torts will especially help with my anger issues.
Could a tortoise be a service animal? Maybe when Steve and George are massive and will follow me around I'll take them to parks so I can walk peacefully; them with super deluxe tortoise service animal vests. That would be a sight to see wouldn't it?
I don't really have anyone to dicuss this with back at home, or friends or anyone at school.
I struggle with controlling my anger. Well, I can control it pretty well, but there are definitely moments where I want to fight people for the stupidest of reasons and arguments. I usually bait people and pressure them to get physical first. I know its wrong but I'm really trying to better msyelf as a person.
The best way I could describe my anger is literally any Mike Tyson pre/post fight interview. I mostly channel my anger through hobbies, like :bodybuilding, weightlifing, my education, as well as caring for my tortoises. I'd say I have had the best improvement very recently, when I bought Steve and George. After buying them from my neighbor, they gave me a new way to calm down and center myself. They have also made me take better care of my two CDTs. I had previously given them a well suited habitat, but neglected them in terms of feeding, water, and overall diet. No longer. I am devoting my life to caring for my tortoises. They are the #1 thing in my life. Whatever job i get, i'll be happy with. I live a very modest life, grown up with very little, and I believe that is another reason I am so angry and filled with hatred all the time. Watching George and Steve walk around with their little legs, eating leaves, and looking forward to their growth picking back up and getting to where they should be, as well as seeing my CDTs noticeably "happier", all that has made this past week and half great.
I know 100% that returning to school, starting senior year of high school will ruin all of this. I will be back to my angry old self and I hate it. Last semester I really bombed all my AP classes. I once believed I could one day be the POTUS for crying out loud. Then my grades, stress level, anger level, poopoo SAT score, poopoo AP exam scores, and a bunch of other things really obliterated my dream. I plan on taking easy classes this year, take a gap year and go off to community college (if at all). Either I find some job or a few, do that and wait until I'm 21 so I could be a crime scene cleaner (dream job), or my parents said I can still live at home until I am 21 so I could get that job, my dream job, as my first job. (I am hispanic, and hispanic families, moms especially, want their kids to stay at home for as long as possible).
I know all of this sounds pathetic and really bad, coming from a once bright eyed top 10 student. I just want to live easy, doing a job I love, and taking care of my torts. I believe my torts will especially help with my anger issues.
Could a tortoise be a service animal? Maybe when Steve and George are massive and will follow me around I'll take them to parks so I can walk peacefully; them with super deluxe tortoise service animal vests. That would be a sight to see wouldn't it?
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