Uno, my tortoise died yesterday. He is with us for 3 months only but losing him is really unbearable. He is the one who helped me cope with my anxiety and depression. He makes me happy every single day. I cannot even go to the living room where he used to roam around and eat. I can imagine how he gets my attention whenever he is hungry. I missed calling him “Uno” and he is right in front of me after a few minutes. I have a lot of "what ifs" within me. I couldn't stop crying remembering how he looks at me every time he wants to eat or wants to play outside. I can see him every time I close my eyes. It keeps flashing to my head over and over again the moment I see him upside down in very hot weather. If only I check on him earlier. If only I didn’t allow him to go outside. If only I didn’t close the door. If only I was knowledgeable enough to know that he could possibly turn upside down, I could have avoided it. I don’t know what to feel or how to move on from this. My friends are telling me just to get another tortoise (even Uno's veterinarian is saying the same thing), but how can they say that? Do they even know how I feel right now? I may sound overacting, but it pains me to think how uno suffered and tried to call me for help. I don’t know how to move on from this.