COLD DARK ROOM

[DE42]

Tis fine.
We care about each other and help one another.

Thank you. I just. I just. I don't know how to make real friends. In don't know how I supposed to be. I don't know who I am.

 

[Bee62]

I love you all but you all are so far. There is on one here. There is never anyone here. I need to find a place. A place when in I can find someone. I'm sorry i should not be saying thus here.

We love you too Dan. We are here when you need us and you can talk about all you want. It is okay.

 

[Bee62]

Thank you. I just. I just. I don't know how to make real friends. In don't know how I supposed to be. I don't know who I am.

You wrote that you will soon move to another town for a new work. In what are you interested ? Maybe there is a club you can join just like TFO. Here we all are interested in tortoises and that brought us together. In a club in your new town you can meet people with the same interests like you. That is the first step to make new friends.

 

[Yvonne G]

Depression, self loathing, thoughts of suicide.

I'm attempting to combat it with some alcohol at the moment.

Excuse me, but drinking a depressant will not help with depression.

 

[Yvonne G]

Just been a hard weekend. It started yesterday buy I've not been able to shake it. Being alone, not able to work or goto school after being sick. I have visited mom and dad but it's not really been enough. It don't fill the hole in my heart and soul. And it builds. Harder and harder until I can think of nothing else.

It's easier said than done, but you need a very absorbing hobby. Something that takes your mind off of you and onto the hobby.

 

[Yvonne G]

I love you all but you all are so far. There is on one here. There is never anyone here. I need to find a place. A place when in I can find someone. I'm sorry i should not be saying thus here.

If you can't say it here, where can you say it. Look into someplace that has support groups. My sister is suffering through an old age disease and she recently started going to church. She's not religious, but she went to have people around her. Some of the ladies have taken her under their wing and make sure she's ok. Find yourself a support group.

 

[Bee62]

It's easier said than done, but you need a very absorbing hobby. Something that takes your mind off of you and onto the hobby.

That`s true.

 

[DE42]

You wrote that you will soon move to another town for a new work. In what are you interested ? Maybe there is a club you can join just like TFO. Here we all are interested in tortoises and that brought us together. In a club in your new town you can meet people with the same interests like you. That is the first step to make new friends.

I hope so. It's the only hope I have have. If it's not where I live. If moving does not help I have no hope for the future. Because that's means i am fundamentally failed and there can be no real hope.

 

[Tidgy's Dad]

Yes tomorrow
. But it's just something to occupy my time. I don't really care about what is doing. It's just something for now. I don't care about planes or aviatiom. It's easy and I can whatever I want. Planes, medicines, engineering. It don't matter it's all easy. I just want people around me that like me. All I want is love l. But for some reason it's kept from me. I don't know what to do to change. It's my curse.

Indeed, it is.
It is hard to be loved by others when you don't love yourself.
When you speak to others emphasize your good points and what makes you happy, not the sadness, loneliness and misery which will only scare people away.
The first thing you must do is develop a positive attitude.
(easy to say, i Know).

 

[Bee62]

I hope so. It's the only hope I have have. If it's not where I live. If moving does not help I have no hope for the future. Because that's means i am fundamentally failed and there can be no real hope.

But it is a hope. No it is much more, it is a incident, a little bit of an adventure and a great cut in your life. It is your future and it doesen`t look bad from my point of view.
Please try to see it the same way. Am I right ?

 

[Tidgy's Dad]

But it is a hope. No it is much more, it is a incident, a little bit of an adventure and a great cut in your life. It is your future and it doesen`t look bad from my point of view.
Please try to see it the same way. Am I right ?

I think so.
(for a change. )

 

[DE42]

If you can't say it here, where can you say it. Look into someplace that has support groups. My sister is suffering through an old age disease and she recently started going to church. She's not religious, but she went to have people around her. Some of the ladies have taken her under their wing and make sure she's ok. Find yourself a support group.

I am the son of a minister and God seams to have left me with my problems. God does not help. I have prayed so much and so hard. But nothing chamges. I'm 28 and I have never know love. I was engaged but it was not loved. I never loved her. I just did not want to be alone. But it soured. And it became pain. Pain is all have ever known. Physical pain. Emotional pain. I hurt so deep. So deep. I can't exsplane. My soul is in agony. I put on a mask. And most do not see what pain I have. I hope, I hope that there is an end to the pain. The never ending pain. Job suffered, Jesus suffered and they found retribution. Paul had a thorn in the side that God would not remove. Is this mine? I don't know.

 

[Yvonne G]

I am the son of a minister and God seams to have left me with my problems. God does not help. I have prayed so much and so hard. But nothing chamges. I'm 28 and I have never know love. I was engaged but it was not loved. I never loved her. I just did not want to be alone. But it soured. And it became pain. Pain is all have ever known. Physical pain. Emotional pain. I hurt so deep. So deep. I can't exsplane. My soul is in agony. I put on a mask. And most do not see what pain I have. I hope, I hope that there is an end to the pain. The never ending pain. Job suffered, Jesus suffered and they found retribution. Paul had a thorn in the side that God would not remove. Is this mine? I don't know.

No, you misunderstood. My sister isn't a believer either, but she started going just to have people around her, not to pray. After the service they stand around and visit and get to know one another. Same with AA meetings. She also went there and gained many new friends. If you can find a support group for folks with depression, it would help because you would be among people who feel as you do. And you'd have someone to talk to who understands

See, I want to take ahold of you by the shoulders and shake you and say SNAP OUT OF IT! But a support group would understand and help

 

[Moozillion]

I agree absolutely with what Yvonne is saying. Finding a support group can help tremendously. Just joining in and participating. First you make acquaintances and some become friends. Other people can show their affection for you while you learn to love yourself.

 

[Bee62]

Do your parents know how you are feeling, Dan ? Have you talked with them about your pain ?

 

[Bee62]

@DE42
Dan,
I am so sorry that you are not here. I would take you in my arms and just hold you.

 

[Tidgy's Dad]

You have to make it happen, Dan.
Do something about it, join some clubs, socialize, go to church.
Meet people.
Drinking at home or asking God to help won't cut it.
You have to be proactive, and you can do it if you really want to.

 

[Bee62]

@DE42

 

[Bee62]

Good night

 

[Tidgy's Dad]

Good night

Are you saying goodnight to Dan or goodnight to us all?
If it is the latter, goodnight Friend Sabine!
Sleep well.