Yes, it has knocked me out you can say.Oh poor you Sabine
This has really knocked you back
But I have another bad new: This evening I had the VET here at home to euthanize my little baby "Monty". He is a cat and I have raised him with my own hands 13 years ago. But now he was too sick. I had to let him go. It was peaceful, calm and easy for him but I am devasteted. I am very, very sad. He was always special to me because he still behaves like a cat baby when he was adult. Now he is lying next to me on the sofa and tomorrow I must burry him. I am sad but glad it is over. He isn`t suffering any longer. Now I am the one who suffers because he is dead.